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If Noah never came out

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If Noah never came out
Jun 12 2008, 2:49 PM EDT | Post edited: Jun 12 2008, 2:49 PM EDT
When Noah and Maddie were dating, Noah told Luke he was not gay. Of course he was in denial about the whole thing and his true feelings. But what if he stuck to his guns and refused to come out? Imagine Noah and Maddie getting married and having kids. Maddie wants to go to church and be involved in the community, so does Noah. They go on in life raising their kids and working in their careers. But through it all Noah can't help being attracted to guys and secretly views gay porn on the internet. Soon Maddie discovers this and her world is torn in half. They get a divorce but Noah wants custody of the kids because he loves them so and can't think about life without them. Maddie agrees to this and she moves on with her life. Noah stays alone. Year after year passes by and Noah continues to live the lie of his sexuality because he does not want to hurt his kids or shock the people he works with. But how long can he go on? Night after night being alone in bed begins to suck. And wanting another man there with him conflicts his need. If he doesn't do something soon though, he'll face middle age alone and by that time the chances of finding a dashing prince charming will be slim to none.
I wrote this because this is my story and the Nuke story gives me courage and a hope to change. Back in the mid 80's and early 90's it was not easy coming out. And now with so many responsibilities the challenge is even harder. I look to you guys, my new Nuke family to help me make decisions and find a clear direction to go in. After all, I want to be a Noah that finds his Luke and live happily ever after.
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scrobbie
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1. RE: If Noah never came out
Jun 12 2008, 8:36 PM EDT | Post edited: Jun 12 2008, 8:36 PM EDT
Welcome to this site and thanks for your post. I think that it's so amazing how the Luke and Noah story has touched so many people and has brought together so many different types of people on this site. I know that you'll find some amazing people on this site to chat with because I have!
You must be an amazing Dad. There are a lot of selfish parents out there in this world and you seem selfless. I hope that you do find your Luke and live happily ever after because you deserve your life too.
I look forward to see you around the threads :-)
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Mungodraugr
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2. RE: If Noah never came out
Jun 23 2008, 5:17 AM EDT | Post edited: Jun 23 2008, 5:17 AM EDT
" If he doesn't do something soon though, he'll face middle age alone and by that time the chances of finding a dashing prince charming will be slim to none.
I wrote this because this is my story and the Nuke story gives me courage and a hope to change. Back in the mid 80's and early 90's it was not easy coming out. And now with so many responsibilities the challenge is even harder. I look to you guys, my new Nuke family to help me make decisions and find a clear direction to go in. After all, I want to be a Noah that finds his Luke and live happily ever after. "
yup, you completely understand where I'm at. and I understand you as well. One of the things that really pisses me off about the conservative religious right is how they point fingers at the messed up lives of adult homosexuals and try to use it as evidence at how harmful the "homosexual lifestyle" is, when in fact, it is their ignorance, unacceptance and socially accepted bigotry that cause the ill effects in the first place.
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Bitrixbf
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3. RE: If Noah never came out
Jul 1 2008, 2:41 PM EDT | Post edited: Jul 1 2008, 2:41 PM EDT
"yup, you completely understand where I'm at. and I understand you as well. One of the things that really pisses me off about the conservative religious right is how they point fingers at the messed up lives of adult homosexuals and try to use it as evidence at how harmful the "homosexual lifestyle" is, when in fact, it is their ignorance, unacceptance and socially accepted bigotry that cause the ill effects in the first place."
I am a religious straight female and I can tell you that your story makes me feel like there should be more fathers like you, who put their children's lives and well being before yours. I do hope that you'll find your Luke and that you'll have the life you deserve.
While you search for your dashing prince you can enjoy the people in this wiki, I have found people who cares and supports no matter what. And that's what we all want from friends...

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Rathnakumar
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4. RE: If Noah never came out
Jul 7 2008, 1:45 AM EDT | Post edited: Jul 7 2008, 1:45 AM EDT
I just read this Scott... I don't know what to say...
I think you deserve to be happy and that you will definitely be...
We're here for you! *Hugs*
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Lotsip

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5. RE: If Noah never came out
Jul 11 2008, 3:29 PM EDT | Post edited: Jul 11 2008, 3:29 PM EDT
shit scott...that is some story you got there.
OH like rat I don't know what to say...I wanna find your "Luke" for you!!!
You deserve it!
*hugs*
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time2change
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6. RE: If Noah never came out
Jul 11 2008, 6:18 PM EDT | Post edited: Jul 11 2008, 6:18 PM EDT
Thanks everybody.
All silliness aside, for the last month I have been blown away by everyone here. Your personal comments to me and the friendship you have shown have been like gold in my heart. If I could reach out and hug all of you around the world then I would because you are not friends, you are my family and I love you!
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keyboarder1980
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7. RE: If Noah never came out
Jul 15 2008, 10:30 PM EDT | Post edited: Jul 15 2008, 10:30 PM EDT
"Thanks everybody.
All silliness aside, for the last month I have been blown away by everyone here. Your personal comments to me and the friendship you have shown have been like gold in my heart. If I could reach out and hug all of you around the world then I would because you are not friends, you are my family and I love you!"
Scott,

I'm glad to know that I was one of those people. You too will find your Luke in life. I am with you in waiting, though I am already out. I know what the waiting is like. I hope for you that you don't have to wait as long as I have been waiting to find your Luke. I'm sure you'l have more luck. But I'm glad to know that I'm one of your friends here and I look forward to corresponding more. And your phone call the other day was so nice. I hope the angel that I sent you is still watching over you, and may it remain with you always.

Drew
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mrdavida

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8. RE: If Noah never came out
Jul 25 2008, 11:18 AM EDT | Post edited: Jul 25 2008, 11:18 AM EDT
Scott: I feel so exposed. You wrote my life story. How did you know. But, Noah did and he found Luke. Really great romantic love story. Let's hope we can continue to live vicariously through those two for many episodes to come.
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luv2writeandread
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9. RE: If Noah never came out
Jul 28 2008, 10:17 PM EDT | Post edited: Jul 28 2008, 10:17 PM EDT
"Scott: I feel so exposed. You wrote my life story. How did you know. But, Noah did and he found Luke. Really great romantic love story. Let's hope we can continue to live vicariously through those two for many episodes to come."
i just read this gee scott thats hard and i really ope that you find what you deserve because you know that we all love you and i cant imagine what an amazing dad you must be
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LaraMcK
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10. RE: If Noah never came out
Aug 3 2008, 5:39 PM EDT | Post edited: Aug 3 2008, 5:39 PM EDT
How did I miss this thread before?
Oh yeah I was pre-back surgery when it started! :) Forgive me?

Your story breaks my heart but know you love your children and that gives me hope. Anyone that can love their children the way you do deserves to have love again.
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francesco86
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12. RE: If Noah never came out
Sep 12 2008, 8:23 PM EDT | Post edited: Sep 12 2008, 8:23 PM EDT
kids can provide love unconditionally"
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maggie119
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13. RE: If Noah never came out
Nov 8 2008, 3:04 PM EST | Post edited: Nov 8 2008, 3:04 PM EST
Scott I can't believe I never read this thread before. I know a lot has changed in your life since you started this thread. You have found your "Luke" and your kids know about you and love Drew. All that is left is to tell the family. I know when you are ready you will have the strength to do it. In addition to Drew and your children remember that all of us here on the wiki are here for you. We love ya! You'll be in my prayers.
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manlovefan
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14. RE: If Noah never came out
Jul 29 2009, 11:36 AM EDT | Post edited: Jul 29 2009, 11:36 AM EDT
it really is like my story! lol. The great thing about family is that they will always love you, you just have to give them time (well, that works most of the time...) but, it's is so great that you finally found someone who you love and loves you and you don't have to hide anything!

And i'm glad you found your Luke :)
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