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Nukelover

Noah ran after Luke as he walked though Old Town. "Luke stop. I don't want to end things like this. I want to be with you, I just can't right now."

Luke stopped, but didn't turn to look at Noah. He was still very angry. "I don't get it. You want to be with me, but you can't be with me. It's like last summer all over again."

Noah didn't know what Luke was talking about. "What do you mean?"

Luke turned around. "Last summer, you were attracted to me, but because of your father you couldn't be gay, so you couldn't be with me. Now because your father is dead and you are confused you can't be with me. It's like he finally won."

Noah stepped closer to Luke. "He hasn't won. I told you I love you. That's something he can't take away."

Luke nodded. "Maybe, but you can't stand to be near me or touch me, if that's true he has won."

Noah shook his head. "I just need more time."

Luke shrugged. "Fine I'll give you all the time you want."

Noah got angry. "Does this mean that you are going to start seeing Reg."

Luke let out a sigh. "I told you Reg is a friend. I'm not ready to see other guys. I love you. But Noah tell me what do you want me to do while I'm giving you this time? Do you want me to sit by the phone until you decide to call? Do you want me to cross the street if I see you walking toward me? Not talk to anyone except my family to make sure that other guys don't think I'm available."

Noah shook his head. "Of course not. I couldn't ask you to do that."

Luke nodded. "I'm glad to hear that, because I won't do that. I'm not looking to be with anyone but you, but if you take too long to sort things out. I can't guarantee that I will be waiting for you."

Luke turned and walked off and Noah stood there staring.

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Stardiva
the young woman sits reading the what happens next story for the epp that aired today " fuck not again, Noah for fuck sakes don't just stand there go after him. Trust trish to write something like this. god this is getting soooo madding. she wanted to grab both luke and noah and bash their heads together and knock some sence in to them. they were both acting like stuborn mules. Well at least the mouse was gone and Cyndi lauper was on her way to help the boys. . But again she swore under her breath we don't know when we get them again Damn it. Now we gotta sit through the stupid sophie thing and the Hughes vs stuart thing. Well at least we get Casey. ( a bare chested casey at that) she thought. God they didn't even have him say good bye to the mouse. fucking stupid writers of the show .
she wondered which of her on line friends would continue this story

LUKE TURNED AND WALKED OFF AND NOAH STOOD THERE STARING.

STARDIVA

pobgoblin
(NB: I don't condone violence at all, and Noah would probably never do this, but let's all just escape reality for a moment and enjoy it...)

Noah stood for what seemed like an eternity, watching helplessly as Luke rounded the corner and was gone.

"What are you looking at?" said a voice at his shoulder, bringing him back to his senses. It was Reg.
"Nothing, I was just going to class," replied Noah defensively, straightening his shoulders.
"Me too, I'll walk over with you," Reg said cheerily. God, even the sound of his voice is annoying, Noah thought, bristling.
"Uh, yeah well I'm in kindof a rush..." He started walking briskly in the direction of the campus.
Reg scurried along beside him, trying to keep up with Noah's long strides.
"So I hear you and Luke broke up, that's a shame dude."
"Yeah, right."
"No seriously man, you guys were good together. I could see how upset Luke was when I saw him earlier."
"It didn't stop you making a move though, did it?!" said Noah, coming to a dead stop and turning to face him.
"What? No - well - I mean, we were just talking, I didn't exactly make a move on him..." Reg faltered, then a smug smile spread across his face.
"He was definitely open to suggestions, though." He said, raising his eyebrow fiendishly.

Noah snapped. Almost before he even knew what he was doing, his fist was clenched and it was zooming towards Reg's stupid smug grin. It connected with a satisfying *thwock*. Reg's eyes grew wide in surprise before they rolled up into his head and he slumped forward onto Noah's chest, out cold. Noah stood, aghast at what he had just done, but at the same time some small part of him was quietly delighted at getting his revenge on the sleazeball. He supported Reg under his arms and sat him down on a nearby bench. It looked as though he was taking a nap. Noah lightly slapped his cheeks till he woke up, groggy and confused.

"What the hell...?" Reg mumbled, feeling his jaw tenderly. "You - you punched me!" He looked up at Noah like a frustrated child, about to throw a tantrum.
"That was just my way of warning you - don't get any ideas about stealing my boyfriend."

And with that, Noah walked away, rubbing his sore knuckles and smiling for the first time in weeks.

Lotsip

Luke hadn't got far before he realised he couldn't run off like that, he knew that, it was not the mature thing to do and no solution. Just as he came back he heard some angry voices, the next thing he knew he saw Noah hitting Reg. Luke decided to hide behind a corner, he stood watching as Noah placed Reg on a bench. He couldn't believe he actually hit him, that was not like his Noah. So angry. Luke couldn't help to think that he should be scared of this violent streak Noah had been showing lately. But right now, he was kinda pleased to see his jealous side emerge. It must mean something. He noticed that Reg was waking up again, wow that must have been some strong punch Noah handed out. Luke got shivers just thinking about his strong arms. He shook those thoughts and tried to listen to what they were saying instead

"That was just my way of warning you - don't get any ideas about stealing my boyfriend."

My boyfriend...so he really feels that way about me, Luke smiled to himself, there were still hope.

Noah was heading his way. There was no time to hide, ok just play cool.
"So I'm still your boyfriend am I?" Luke folded his arms and looked at Noah with a smirk on his face.
Noah jumped when Luke suddenly appeared from behind the corner.
"You heard that?"
"Yeah, I did. And I also saw that punch you threw at Reg"
"Oh" Noah looked a bit ashamed, it was not his style to do that, Reg just got under his skin.
"I should be mad at you really, Reg is my friend you know" Luke knew exactly what he was doing, he was going to make Noah suffer a bit.
"Well I don't regret it, he's a sleaze. And if he thinks he can try and steal you away, he's wrong" Noah said angrily.
"Steal me away from what exactly?"
Noah got quiet, he wasn't really expecting this, he needed a break, but he knew that throwing that punch had shown something else about what he felt.
"Steal you away from....me" Noah said quietly.
"So...what are you saying Noah?" Luke asked and looked at him straight in his eyes.

Lotsip

pobgoblin (again)

Noah looked down for a moment, then back into Luke's eyes, full of expectation and hope.
"I don't know..." He had a pained expression on his face, torn between his heart and his head.
"Don't think about all the other stuff. It's just you and me. What do you want? Do you want me to be your boyfriend?" he teased gently.
Just then they were interrupted by Reg, who had staggered up and stood, glaring at Noah and swaying slightly, still clutching his face.
"Luke, you shouldn't bother with this loser. He's obviously got some serious rage issues!" and with that he turned on his heel and stomped off, his cheek already beginning to puff out like a hamster.
Noah looked at Luke, whose lips had started to twitch. Noah let out a snort, and they both exploded into laughter as Reg flounced away, throwing them one last reproachful look. They were helpless for about five full minutes, Luke leaning his head on Noah's shoulder as they tried to regain their composure. People walking by looked at them strangely as they held eachother, tears rolling down their cheeks, overcome with mirth.
"I think you need me around to help you curb your uncontrollable rage!" Luke chuckled, giving Noah a nudge.
"I don't know what came over me, I guess I just saw red... but you're right. I need you." Noah replied, taking Luke's hand...

pobgoblin

Nukelover

Luke looked down at his hand in Noah's. It was the first time that Noah had touched him since they had gotten back from NY. He had gotten his hopes up before only to be crushed when Noah said that he needed a break. He looked up at Noah and slowly asked. "What are you saying Noah?"

Noah looked into Luke's eyes. "I don't want to lose you."

Luke stepped closer to Noah. "You're not. It just hurts so bad when you push me away."

Noah looked down at the ground. "I don't want to, but it's the only way that I can think. I have to work through my feelings alone, because that's the way that I've always done it."

Luke put his hand on Noah's face and forced him to look at him. "That was before you had me. Now you don't have to do it alone. You have me to lean on and to help you."

Noah smiled at Luke a tear ran down his face. "I never thought of it that way before."

Luke smiled. "That's why you need me. To help you think of things in a different way. What do you say we get out of here. Maybe get some more coffee."

Noah chuckled. "If I have anymore coffee I won't sleep for a week. I've barely been sleeping as it is."

Luke wrapped his arm around Noah's. "Where do you want to go?"

Noah bit his lip and thought for a moment. "Maybe to the pond. I could do for a nice walk."

Luke nodded. "Sounds good."

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Lunastreak

They walked to the pond hand in hand as the sun began to set. Noah grabbed some rocks as he began to skip them over the water's surface, while Luke looked on.

After a time he finally turned around and looked back at Luke.

"Look", he said, "I know this situation is screwed up, and if I could make it better, if I knew how... you have to believe me when I say that I would."

Luke nodded as he continued to look back at Noah.

"I still need to work this out on my own, alone... it's just my way, I can't force things, it's the way I process things... and I don't know how long that will take."

Luke turned around and began to walk off as Noah ran up behind him and turned him back towards him, cupping his face, looking into his eyes.

"But... that doesn't mean I don't want to be with you, or that you can't be with me. Can't we just be together as I start to sort things thru? Take refuge and comfort in the silence between us, happy that we have each other and content with just being together for the time being, without having to analyze every little thing? Just sit and be for a bit? I may not be able to articulate into words what's happening, but that doesn't mean I don't want you there by me as things begin to bubble up to the surface. Can you stand there with me, by my side and help me work thru things as they start to take shape? Can you do that? Because I do love you, and I'm... a little afraid... of where this will take me, but if I know you're there with me as it happens, letting me go thru it as it occurs but holding my hand as it occurs... then I know I can face anything. Do you think you can do that... please?"

Luke looked up at Noah thru tear-filled eyes and nodded. "Yes... I can do that. I can wait for you as you work thru this, as long as you let me stand there with you, beside you as it takes place."

And with that Noah grabbed Luke and brought him towards him as the tears began to run down and for the first time in weeks, a sense of calmness finally settled in between them.

Lunastreak