Title: Noahs First thoughts on the first kiss - Part 2 Chapter: 3 of i dunno??? Rating: PG17 Summary: Noah gives un an insight into his thoughts of the first kiss Characters: Luke, Noah, Maddie (mentioned) Genre: AU Warnings: Some mild language Disclaimer: This site is no way associated with "As the World Turns", CBS, P&G, or Van Hansis and Jake Silbermann. This is not for profit. No copyright infringement is intended. Authors submit and write their own work.

‘I still cannot believe that I just told my own father off, and literally, in front of him, kissed the man of my dreams. The man I want to spend the rest of my days with, grow old, maybe start a family - but not straight away, I want to enjoy or own time together first. But arrrggg first off I need to tell Maddie, I need to make her understand that this is not her own fault. I really didn’t and never ever wanted to hurt her, she doesn’t deserve this at all’. I think to myself, still trying to come to terms with what has just happened with my Father and with showing my true feelings to Both Luke and my Father at the same time. ‘It is a scary feeling I am feeling right now and yet somewhat I feel relieved, like this sudden pressure and weight has been lifted off me, longer feeling the pain or guilt. But there is still a small guilt I suppose, and that guilt it going to hurt the one person I never wanted to hurt at all. She doesn’t deserve this, she deserves to be happy, free and loved’ I continue to think to myself. I am suddenly brought back to earth and to reality by my loving Boyfriend - I think, Luke.

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“Hey what’s up Mister?? What are you thinking? Your not regretting this……..us are you Noah?” Luke asks in a sudden sadden mood “What no….no I am not regretting anything anymore, well maybe just one thing….but it has nothing to do with you Luke, its more to do with Maddie” I look into Luke’s eye’s as I hold his hand and try to make him understand ‘You could never do any wrong to me at all Luke, you are perfect, in every way, shape or form. “Hmm if your sure, and if you want, I can come with you if you want to speak with Maddie, she will need all her friends at the moment and I think it is important that she knows we are still her friends and will be here for her” Luke says trying to comfort me at the same time ‘I know he is right, but I think I should do this on my own - but I think I need him there with me, cause I think he will be able to help Maddie understand - oh I dunno.

“I know your right Luke, but I just don’t want Maddie hating you. It would break my heart and I would feel guilty if she was to blame you, when the blame lies solely with me, not you” I advise Luke. “I know Noah but” Luke says as he holds my hand and looks into my eye’s God his brown eye are so passionate, they make me go weak. I could just get lost in them forever “but I think its best if we are both there to explain what happened and at least try to help her understand. I want to help you with this Noah, cause I really, really and I mean really like you a lot Noah, more than you will ever know” Luke says as he places his hand around my face, cupping it and bringing me in for a deep and passionate kiss god every time I kiss him, its like sparks, no fireworks - no both are coming from me both inside and out, even down below seems to become awaken - ok maybe I should have thought that - but hey im a guy, and Luke is a fucking awesome, brilliant words aren’t even enough kisser and I am soo in love with him, yes I am in love with him, and I need to tell him first off, so he knows that it is him I want to be with - not anyone else.

After what seemed like ages, we both broke apart, I looked into his eyes and smiled “well there is one thing I am going to say Snyder, you’re a fucking fantastic kisser, you have awoken me from my slumber and made me feel even more alive”. Luke looked at me and I could see his face brighten up. I could also see he was blushing bright red almost like a red traffic light actually, he is soo cute, I love that smile, it brightens my day no matter what, god I could get use to this soo very much, even just waking up next to him in bed, the long cold and warm of course nights, talking, making love - oh gwad, maybe I shouldn’t have thought that - DAMN IT NOAH - TO LATE!!!

Luke then looked suddenly down at my um lower regions shall we say and he lit up even further, but he could also see what seems to a wet patch making its way through the clothing “well I say, um someone seems to be definitely awake and um well letting his presence noted actually” Luke said giggling at me and pointing to my crotch “Hey I couldn’t help it if my boyfriend is soo fucking damn hot, that I had these really nice yet dirty thoughts you know. But I also want to tell you something serious Luke, I….I want to tell you something and well this isn’t easy to say, but…..but I have liked you for a long time, I…..I have tried to deny these feeling as a “phase” shall we say” I look at Luke, who has a confused and yet frightening look on his face “But don’t worry, it not a phase, its for real. My feelings for you are not ever going to change, I………Luke I……….I love you Luke, I always have and always will” I look at Luke who has now gone from a frightened and scared look to a relieved one, as if too feels the same God I hope he does, cause that was sooo fucking not easy - who ever said it was, really who where they - superman??? God I soo need a strong drink right now I think, no I think I need a heart monitor, cause my heart is still beating fast - is it possible to have a heart attack at 19 years of age - really is it???

Luke looks at me, as if he is staring into my Blue eyes and he is lost. I can see tears begin to form in his Brown eyes oh god don’t tell me he doesn’t feel the same - shit I am such an fucking loser - really Mayer you’ve blown it, but then again I rather blow someone…..NO DON’T EVEN THINK IT AGAIN!! I do not need to have another wet dream thank you!

“Noah I feel exactly the same, I am soo in love with you, that my heart beats a thousand times a second. I feel the butterflies fly around my stomach, I go weak at the knees every time I see you. It all because of you Noah. I love you as well, I always have and always will” Luke says as he is now crying, he is looking at me and crying happy tears, his is smiling “Im sorry Noah, I am not upset, these are tears of happiness, you have made me soo happy right now. I…..I never want us, this to end at all” He says, smiling happily at me, with tears running down his cheeks. God he is perfect, beautiful. Words aren’t even enough really.

I wipe away his tears with my thumbs “Hey hey, I know, and I am glad you feel the same, and I also never want this to end. I know that with you by my side, I can overcome anything really. But right now I think we need to get cleaned up maybe and go and speak with Maddie. So are you up for that babe?” I ask Luke stupid question but I have to ask, I like to be the gentleman here Luke replies “Of course I am ready, I am here for you, like you are here for me”. Luke holds my hands as we get up off the office couch and head towards wardrobe, hand in hand, boyfriends, best friends God could this day get any better really? I have the man of my dreams by my side, and me by his side, together, nothing can stop us.