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| Title: Talk To My Heart Chapter: Hell if I know??? Rating: PG Summary: Noah is still blind, and has had it with Luke always being on his case with everything. Can he find his way back to Luke with the help of a friend? Characters: Noah, Luke, Jason Genre: Warnings: Disclaimer: This site is no way associated with "As the World Turns", CBS, P&G, or Van Hansis and Jake Silbermann. This is not for profit. No copyright infringement is intended. Authors submit and write their own work I put my hand in front of my face and what exactly do I see? Absolutely NOTHING, is the correct answer to that question. I can't even see a shadow on the wall! Blind....that is what I am. The life that I always wanted for myself, the life that I was working hard for, is gone for good. Who, in there right mind would hire a blind director? If the answer that is coming to mind is no one....rest assure, you are not alone in thinking that way. Luke talked me into going into therapy, even though that was the last thing on my mind. I went to amuse him a little. Thank god the therapy only lasted a few weeks. That way, I could come back to where I belong and work on something that I truly wanted....no needed to do. Work on seeing once again. Two weeks went on, and it seems like even when I went to the restroom, Luke was on the side of me asking me if I needed any help at all. If felt like I was just breathing Luke. In most ways it felt like he was smothering me by being too close to me. I had to get out.....I had to get some air.....I just....I just HAD to get away from the one thing that I always thought I would want on the side of me...Luke. " Um....I'm going outside for a few moments." I said to Luke as I tried to put my jacket on by myself. " Let me help you with that." Luke says, as I felt as he put my jacket around me. " Thank you." I said to him, trying not to sound mean, as I put my hands in the jackets pocket. " You're welcome." Luke says. " Where are you going?" " Just outside." I answered as I searched for the door knob. " Well, I'll go with you. I need some fresh air any way." Luke says as he places his hand on my hand on the knob. " You don't have too do that, Luke." I said as I tried to pull my arm off of Luke's hand. " I want too though." Luke says as he puts his arm around my shoulder. " Um...." I started to say, as I twist out of his embrace. " I want to be alone for a few moments, if that's okay with you." " Well, to be honest.....no, its not okay with me. I don't want you alone outside. I'll go sit with you, and we can have a nice talk about things." Luke says as he guides me outside. " STOP!" I screamed loud enough for the deaf to hear me. " I tried my best to tell you this in a nice way, but apparently you are not getting the hint. With everything going on in my life right now....I just need some me time....some alone time....and please don't take this in a bad way, but.....I just need to get away from YOU!" I opened the door the door for him to go back in. I started to walk away, leaving, I'm sure, a very shocked and surprised Luke on the doorstep. I walked outside and made my way to the swing that was on the side of the house. The trip there was short enough for me to take on my own and not trip and fall over my own two feet. As soon as I made it too the swing, I sat down while I pulled out my phone to call someone to get me out pf here for a few moments. Only one person came to mind when I thought about who to call to pick me up. I flipped the phone open and told it who I wanted it to call. " Call Jason." I said in the clearest voice that I could come up with. I put the phone to my ear and waited for Jason to answer my call. " Noah? Why are you calling me? I thought for sure that you and that hot boyfriend of yours would be catching up on lost time." Jason says to me. " If you mean sex.....sorry to proove you wrong, but Luke and I have not had sec since I got back...Not that it is any of your business." I said rolling my eyes that don't work any more. " WHAT? You haven't tapped that a'ss yet? Better question, he didn't want to tap your fine a'ss?" Jason asked me with a voice I didn't like. " Jason, is sex the only thing on your mind?" I asked him knowing the answer before I even asked it. " You know it!" was the answer that he gave me. " I should have never even bothered to ask that question, when I knew the answer to it." I said with a laugh in my voice. " I was wondering why you would ask me a question that I knew you would know the answer too." Jason says to me with a huge laugh. " Yeah, yeah, yeah! I thought about that when the question came out of my mouth." I said as I put my hand on my forehead. " Yeah, well, now that we have the obvious out in the open, that I am nothing more than a sex fiend, what made you decide to call me?" Jason says as I hear a clicking sound over the phone. " Yeah....are you at work?" I asked Jason. " Nope! Totally off all weekend. Why you ask?" Jason says answering my question. " I know that this it totally out of the blue, but....uh....could you come pick me up from this place. I just need to escape for a little while Maybe, if you are in the mood, we could go out for a drink." I asked hoping that he wouldn't just laugh at my suggestion. " Things are THAT bad?" Jason asked giving me hope that he would answer my question, instead of laughing. " Oh, it's worse than you think." I answered him. " WOW! I was planning on staying in tonight, but when my friend id need, I come running to help. I mean, I never say no to a drink any way. So, what time do you want me to pick you up?" Jason asked me, making me breathe a little easier that he didn't laugh at me. " Is NOW, too soon?" I asked squeezing my eyes shut for a moment, hoping for the answer that I wanted. " S'HIT! That is what I call bad. I'm leaving my apartment right now! I'll be at that Snyder....mansion in about 20 minutes....give or take. Just hang on until then, okay, Noah." Jason says to me, then hangs up the phone. I simply shut my phone, and put it back in my pocket. I then stood up from the swing and tried to make my way to the front, so Jason could see that I was outside waiting on him. However, a voice came out from in the back of me that made me jump. " And just who and the hell is Jason?" the voice rang out. I didn't need to see the face of that mad voice to know exactly who it was. From his tone, I knew that he was pissed, and somehow, I had to do my best to try to calm him down. " Luke, just take a few deep breathes, and let me explain everything to you. Okay!" I said as I stuffed my hands in my pocket. " No need, Noah. I can clearly see what this is. You're cheating on me with this Jason guy, right?" Luke asked. " What and the hell?" I asked not understanding the question that came out of his mouth. " It all makes sense to me, now. You don't want to have sex with me, because you are too tired from having sex with him all the time. I can't believe that I didn't see this coming." Luke said, and by the way of the volume of his speech, he was pacing back and forth. " Will you listen to yourself, Luke! I mean, when do you think I have time to sleep with someone?" I asked wanting to know the answer to my question. " Noah, I just....." Luke started to say, but I cut him off. " Luke, just shut the f'uck up. I'm not sleeping with ANYONE. Jason is a friend, that I met at the clinic, and...." " Oh, now I see, you were sleeping with Jason WHILE you were in the clinic. The clinic that my family and I are helping you pay for. Just how low are you, Noah?" That last statement made me see red, and what I said, I honestly don't regret saying. " If you say, 'I see' one more time, I might go ape s'hit on your a'ss. No! I can't see on damn, f'ucking thing. Care to refresh my memory on WHY I can't see right now!" " Please, Noah! I have no time to go over your accident again." " Well, tough s'hit, Luke. You will hear everything it is that I have to tell you. Since I have been back from therapy, you have been with me of every second of every minute of every hour. I am tired of that s'hit. I need some time to think....some time to put my thoughts together." I said trying my best not to loose my temper. " Here you go again.....you're running away from our relationship. You're right though. Since you have been home, I have been hanging around you most of the day, but that is for a reason. I just want you to open your heart to me again. That's why I have been around you as much as I could....I want you to truly understand that all I want is you." I hear Luke say, as a hint of hurt was in his voice. " In doing what Luke? The only thing that you have accomplished was driving me crazy. Don't you understand that I want to let you back in my life....back in my heart again, but with you always with me, I'm not getting the time my heart needs to heal." I tried my best to explain what I was thinking and feeling. " I want to understand this, Noah! I do! However, if you love me as much as you claim to love me, you wouldn't find it so difficult to let me back in your heart." Luke says as I felt him put his arms on my forearm. " I do love you, Luke, but.....I just can't....I just can't let you back in my heart. Not right now, any way." I said as I placed my arms on his. " Noah, don't say that to me. You don't mean that. You want me to get back in your heart....I know you do." Luke says as I could tell that he was in tears. " Sorry, Luke, but.....I can't let you in." I said as I reached for his face, but was stopped in mid reach by a voice from behind Luke.'' " Errr.....did I arrive at a bad time?" Jason asked. " No, actually Jason, you arrived at the right moment." I said as I hear Luke take a deep breathe. " Luke, this is Jason. Jason.....this is my boyfriend." " Hi, Luke. Noah talked a lot about you at the clinic." Jason says trying to make small chit-chat talk with Luke. " Yeah, I bet he did. Nice meeting you Jason, but I have.....I have to..." Luke says, as I hear him start to run away. " YEAH! That boy is hurt." Jason says. " Ya think! And I am the one that is hurting him. I know all that, but I am the one that is blind because he didn't trust my college professor. I just can't seem to be able to let him back in my life again." I suddenly felt Jason squeeze my arm in an attempt to comfort me. In a move that I wasn't sure that I made, I put my hand on top of his. He then pushed me a little in the direction of his truck, but before I could take one step towards his truck, Luke's outburst stopped me deals in my tracks. " Noah, I know that you are hurting and I hope that you understand that I am hurting to see you in so much pain. My only hope is that you see, in time that the only thing that I am trying to do is talk to your heart." I turned my face to Jason, not sure what to do next. My words that I seemed to want to escape from my lips, seem to get stuck in my throat. " Before you start to cry or whatever, he said what it was that he needed to say, then he walked away." Jason said, making me feel like he could read my mind. " Oh..." was the only thing that I managed to say. " Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhh....well, let's get out of here. I know the perfect bar to go to." Jason says to me. " You're right. I'm in need of a few hundred beers or so." I said as I took a step towards Jason. " Now, you're thinking straight." Jason says as he grabs his arm and walks me to his truck. The drive to the bar was made in total silence. My head was against the window for most of the trip, bouncing against it with every hole that we hit. Soon Jason had parked the car, and he was soon showing me the way into the bar. Once we made it to the inside of the bar, Jason, slowly walked to a table, where we sat, and a waitress soon came by and took our order. She brought us our drink and Jason and I soon started talking about whatever popped into out head. Somehow the conversation switched over to the one thing that I came here to forget.....Luke. " You know," I started to say to Jason, " I truly do love Luke, despite of what my actions might be saying. I want to bring him in my arms to hold him tight. I want to look at him in his eyes and tell him that I love him and that I want to be with him. And more importantly I truly do want to make love to him, but.....I can't seem to do it." " I understand why you feel that way, Noah. The only thing that I can tell you is what I can see. And what I see, is that Luke is doing everything that he is doing from the bottom of his heart." " I know that! That is what is upsetting me so much." I say. " Well," Jason says as he stands up and I hear him as he walks away, " I don't know what to tell you, man." Just as he was saying that, I heard the pages of songs on the jukebox start to turn. After a few seconds of quit, I hear money being dropped in the machine. Then the next thing that I knew was Jason was right back on the side of me again. " So, tell me again. Who is it that has the obsession of Tina Turner?" Jason asks. I turned my head slowly to Jason and without missing a beat, I start to giggle. Then the little giggle turns into a roaring laugh. " The one with the huge Tina obsession is Luke. He just told me, in his speech before we left, the name of one of her song." I finish saying, while I tried to control my laughs as best as could be. " And what exactly was the name of the song?" Jason asks me. " Well, he yelled out to me. And I quote: Something, something, something, something, talk to your heart." I said as I took a sip of my drink that I was drinking. " Sorry man, but I didn't hear Luke say anything like something, something, something." Jason says as he breaks into a loud laugh. " Ohhh......you know very well what I am saying." I said to Jason tapping my fingers on the table. " Okay....I do!" Jason says as he brings his laugh under control. "Now, answer my question for me." " Oh, yeah! The song that he mentioned is Talk to My Heart. It's one of Luke's favorite....next to What's Love Got To Do With It." I then start to giggle. " That song.....What's Love Got To Do With It....it did something for me as well. It showed me what I was doing wrong in our relationship. Thanks to Tina, I saw what it was that was hurting him. Tina saved it all for me." " And are you sure that it is Luke that is the Tina fan, and not you?" Jason asked me. " Oh, trust me. Luke know everything about Tina. And when I say everything, I mean EVERYTHING. He knows every concert tour she went on. Every city she was in, and I think that he would even know what bathroom she went to. Me? I'm nothing more than an amateur." I said explaining Luke's obsession out Tina. " Well, Noah." Jason started to say as he gets up, and I hear him walk back to the jukebox after the first song that he picked out finished, " If you claim that Tina helped you once before, then you need to listen to this song." I could hear him put more money in the jukebox and the pages turn again. " Jason.....if you are about to play the song that I think you are about to play then save your money. I have heard just about every song that Tina has sung, about 10 million times each." I said to Jason hoping that I had stopped him in time. " Too late, man. I already put the money in and pressed the button." Jason says while coming back to sit next to me. " The song will play in a few moments." " Damn it, Jason. I'm not in any mood to listen to Tina. Especially the song Talk To My Heart. I have heard that song in my dreams, I have heard it so many times." I said to Jason while I slammed my hands on the table. " Okay, you claim that you have heard the song, but did you actually LISTEN to the song? Did you actually let the lyrics come into your heart." Jason asks me as calm as can be. " Hellooooooo......did you not hear what I said? I heard the song.....too many times to count actually. And I know that this song will no way, no how help me right now." Jason giggles, stands up, then places his hands on my shoulders. He leaned down, then whispered on thing in my ear. " Just.....listen." The song then starts to play, and Jason starts to walk away. Listening to any Tina song at the moment, was the last thing on my mind, but I didn't have any other choice this time around, but to listen to one. I heard the lyrics as they were played, and all at once, it hit me like a sudden thunderstorm. I might treat Luke horrible most of the time, but deep down inside, I know that I am the happiest when I am with him I knew that everything that he was doing, he was doing because he loved me, and only wanted what is best for me. I listened to the words of the song, and before I knew it, the tears were flowing down my face. Soon, the song came to an end, and it then and only then that I decided to wipe the tears away. " Well, I'll be damn! Tina has somehow managed to help me, yet again." " And did you honestly think that she wouldn't?" A voice from behind me said. I recognized that voice from the second I heard it. I slowly turned my head in that direction. " Luke?" I said as my voice started to crack. " I'm right here." Luke says as he walked to me and placed his hands on my face. The second that he did that, my emotions took hold of me, and more tears started to go down my face. Luke being the best boyfriend ever, wiped away my tears. : You keep calling me an obsessed Tina fan, but I think that we owe her everything in our lives. She is the one that keeps putting is together again. So, you have to ask yourself....what would we without Tina?" Luke says as he holds me close to his heart. I couldn't help but laugh at that statement. It was true though. No matter what kind if situation Luke and I were in, Tina was able to find a way to fix it! " When you're right, you're right. Without Tina in our life...no telling where we would be." I said to Luke as I found his chin and brought him down to meet me. As soon as our lips met, I felt the magic that I felt when we had our first kiss. I was finally able to see one thing that my eyes couldn't see. That my eyes wouldn't have let me see, even if I were able to see. Luke was my everything and would do anything to save me from any bad that could happen to me. " So.....um....would you like to get out of here and get a room at the lakeview and.....um.....catch up on lost times?" Luke says as he pulls me away from the kiss. " I think that you have read my mind." Luke then grabbed my hand and lead me out the door. Back in the bar, Jason walks from behind some curtains to see that Luke had received his text and made it to the bar to pick up Noah. He smiled to himself and walked back to the table, grabbed his drink and downed the rest of it. " Well, she did once again, for them." Jason says to himself, " But my question is why?" Jason then walked to the jukebox and looked down at the song list and his hands slowly turned into small fists. It was obvious that he was getting madder as the seconds ticked on. Without being able to control his anger any more, Jason kicked the jukebox with one swift motion. " I don't understand you, Tina. Not one little bit! You do some kind of magic for Luke and Noah, but somehow your magic ends at that point. Why? What makes them so special that you do that for them, while someone like me doesn't get ANYTHING from you. I'm just as big as fan as Luke is." Jason says as his anger starts to build up again, and he punches the jukebox. Jason then turns around and starts to walk out the door. However, before he could make it tot he door, he heard a voice that for sure he swears he shouldn't have heard. A voice that he would have recognized anywhere, but it shouldn't be in that bar. " Hello?" Jason yells out, but no one answers. "Is any one there?" Jason waits around for a few seconds for someone to answer back to him, but when no one did, he ran out the bar. No one is in the bar, but yet the jukebox starts to turn the pages in it. Soon, it found where it was that it wanted to be....on the page with Tina's song on it. Tina, on the CD cover stood motionless, Until....she winked. " And that is why he will not get any magic from me.....he needs to believe first and foremost." She then did a little dance on the cover, then was back to motionless, right before the waitress walked by. THE END!! |
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