Chapter: 12 All the Blame Special Thanks: Special thanks to Vernie for her help with this story. Rating: PG 13 Characters: Noah, Luke, Roth, Eddie Disclaimer: This site is no way associated with "As the World Turns", CBS, P&G, or Van Hansis and Jake Silbermann. This is not for profit. No copyright infringement is intended. Authors submit and write their own work.

Noah came into the apartment. Luke followed close behind. "Noah wait."

Noah couldn't even look at Luke. "I don't understand how you could do this to me. We have been through so much. We were happy. We made love and you told me you loved me. I don't understand."

Luke wanted to just take Noah in his arms and tell him the truth, but he couldn't. "It happened while you were away.."

Noah turned and looked at Luke. "You slept with Roth. No you couldn't have. I talked to you on the phone each night. Was he here?"

Luke shook his head. "No. You know that we are friends. We spent a lot of time together and I just..."

Noah stepped closer to Luke. "You just realized that you wanted him."

Luke had never seen Noah so angry. Not even when he thought that he had told Maddie that he was gay. "It's not like that."

Noah turned and walked away. "You were kissing him. All that time with Eddie. We were in this apartment and you accused me of all types of things. Yeah me and Eddie kissed, but it was all on him. I've never even looked at another man. All I wanted was you. We agreed that if we ever had feelings for anyone else that we would tell the other person. How long has this been going on?"

Luke wasn't sure what to say. He didn't want to lie to Noah, but he couldn"t tell him the truth. "It just happened."

Noah turned and faced Luke again. He wanted to grab Luke. He put up his hands, but quickly put them down. "Just happened. Did you trip and your tongue accidentally fell down his throat? Things like that don't just happen. You had been eyeing Roth all evening. Didn't you think that I would notice? Has everything between us been a lie?"

Luke shook his head, as tears began to run down his face. "No. It wasn't a lie. It was...it is real. I love..."

Noah covered. His ears. "Don't say it. You don't love me. If you did you wouldn't have done what you did. You didn't even have the decency to do it behind my back. You did it at a party, so that everyone could see it. I feel like such a fool."

Noah was being so hurtful to Luke. Luke stood there and took it, because he knew that he deserved it. He had betrayed Noah. "I know that I can't take it back."

Noah went into the bedroom. He opened Luke's drawer and threw out his clothes. "Get out of here. Get out of here now. I don't ever want to see you again."

Luke walked up behind Noah. "Noah don't."

Noah went into the bathroom. He closed the door and leaned with his back to the wall.

Luke got a bag and threw some of his clothes into it. He went to the bathroom door and put his hand to it. "Noah. I'm so sorry." He turned and walked out of the apartment.

Noah heard the door shut. He looked at the shower, and flashes of he and Luke filled his mind. He slid down to the floor and hugged his knees to his chest and began to cry.
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Luke was leaning on the wall outside of the apartment. He had done it. He had broken Noah's heart. He felt sick to his stomach. He didn't know what to do. "I can't go to the farm. I would have to explain everything and my mom would notice if I went to the Lakeview."

Just then his phone rang. Luke answered it. "Luke is that you?"

Luke frowned at the phone. "Roth?"

Roth was frantic. "Luke it's Eddie. He passed out and I couldn't wake him. We are at the hospital. I didn't know who else to call. Can you come? I'm really scared."
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Luke saw Roth pacing in the hall. "Roth, how is Eddie?"

Roth turned and faced Luke. "Luke they think he ODed. I guess the stuff was purer than we were use to."

Luke put his arms around Roth. "What stuff?"

Roth leaned on Luke's shoulder. "The drugs that Noah brought us."

Luke was in shock. There were drugs in the package. "He's going to be okay. He has too."

Roth nodded. "Yeah he has too. He's my best friend. I've known him since grade school. I don't know what I would do without him. He's always been there."

Luke patted Roth on the back. "Yeah I know."

Roth composed himself. He stood up and looked at Luke. "Luke. Why are you trying to break up with Noah?"

Luke turned away from Roth. "What are you talking about?"

Roth walked around Luke and wouldn't let him avoid him. "That kiss in the kitchen. You had never shown any interest in me before and if you did we have been alone plenty of times. First you put your hand on mine as Noah is walking up and then you kiss me where he can see it. Don't get me wrong I loved the kiss, but you are my friend. What's going on?"

Luke shook his head. "I don't want to talk about it. Let's just worry about Eddie."
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Roth and Luke sat in the hospital and waited for Eddie to wake up. The doctor finally came out. "Are you here for Eddie Wilson?"

Roth and Luke got up . "Yeah, is he going to be alright?"

The doctor looked at his chart. "He's a lucky young man. I have seen a lot of people not make it through this, but he is going to be fine."

Roth and Luke both let out sighs of relief. "Can we see him?"

The doctor nodded. "He's still kind of out of it, but yeah."

Roth and Luke went into the room. "Eddie?"

Eddie turned towards the boys. "I really messed up this time."

Roth took Eddie's hand. "The doctor said that you will be fine."

Eddie smiled. "I'm so glad that your my friend."

Roth smile. "I always will be Eddie. You can count on me."

Coming Soon: It's Done.
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Chapter 13